Wednesday, July 26, 2017

Foodie for now


Yep. Some food stuff I want to show for today~
 I miss all of them~
I'll upload more next time~










-vivian-

Monday, July 24, 2017

Katsumori Garden


My host brought me here after we went to Kitakyushu~ The garden looks normal from outside, but there are more to it inside. I'm glad we came here~

I swear, there are more to these pictures. I didn't take pictures of them.





Hydrangeas love!!!!

There was a couple of musicians practising song when we were there. Imagine strolling at the pretty garden accompanied by great music~



And, some kind of birdie. First time seeing.



There were parking lots for visitors, so don't worry about it~ Also, there are many cats there.



-vivian-

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Wandering around the neighbourhood


I made a video on this, but there are just so many pictures I want to show you!

A nursery nearby where I stayed~


Pretty flowers





Is this succulent? XD



This is called Satsuki. I think it's very beautiful.



Hydrangeas!!




So much love for the nature here!
And OMG corgi!




In case you forgot how I look like...



Here's the video, I hope you're interested to watch~





-vivian-

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Channeling

I actually forgotten the existence of this blog until I noticed the fact that there's nowhere I can express my feelings.

Lately, I have been feeling down. There are so many things going on and I think I can't fix them. I don't even know where to begin right now.




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For one, I know how I feel about my work - my life as a teacher. 

Do I really want to be a teacher?
- No.

As simple as that. It has always been my mother's dream to be a teacher. So I am only helping her to realise her dream. "Mother knows best", I thought the same too. I get many holidays. When students have holidays, I have holidays too and my salary goes on. When time comes, the money is going to be in the account. Plenty of holidays with good pay. No other job better than being a teacher. 
But I really notice that I am unhappy being here. Yes, okay, I realise her dream so I become a teacher just like she wanted. What about MY dream?

Has she ever asked me if I'm happy teaching?
- No.

I wonder why people never bother asking about my feelings. It's always theirs. I feel that I am actually not important. My feelings, my opinions don't matter to anyone. Just for once, why can't anyone ask about me?




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Number two
Food stuff like noodle I bought from Japan; I cooked but they taste bad. I am not sure why, but one thing I am sure of is I want to be in Japan and eat in Japan. I think, the same food eaten in Japan will taste nicer than in Malaysia. Maybe I miss that Japan a lot that it makes me sad because I can't be there physically right now.




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And then there is this spot in my heart where I once no longer knew what crush, infatuation or love was.

Someone has made me know how to feel again. I have never had feelings for anyone like I do for him. And I care a lot about him. He's an emo kind of guy, though. Sometimes, he makes me feel like I am someone who can be easily replaced. As if he can act like he's never known me.

He refuses to be cared for and doesn't care on most things. Whenever I try to advise him on something he doesn't want to hear, he refuses on me. I feel rejected. Rejected by someone I care about so much. 

Lately, he told me that he intends to end his life. Although I shouldn't interfere with his decisions, but it pains me knowing that he doesn't want to continue living. I want to help him but I don't know how. He's far from me.

And every night since then, I cry myself to sleep not knowing if he'll still be breathing when I wake up. I just want him to stay alive.




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I recently bought a succulent plant. It is not doing very well.

Leaf wilted and died, leaves wrinkle at both surfaces. I repotted for the third time this evening. I just don't know what I can do to save my plant. It means a lot to me, so I feel helpless because I really don't know what I can do to fix it.




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I am not the kind of person who likes to be "read". I don't appreciate people trying to pry into my personal life, and attempt to invade my personal space.

I really am not happy living here. It makes me sad. I am on my way to leave this place for good. For my own happiness. I hope I can achieve it. I just want to do something I like.



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-vivian-

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Beautiful Countryside



I can't stress enough that the outskirts of Tagawa is really beautiful.




I think I fall in love with the peace and pace of this place.




-vivian-

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Miyajidake Shrine


This is one of the must-visit shrines, I must say. It is located in Fukutsu city in the Kyushu. You may not notice this shrine, but you shall notice the signboard as you head towards Fukuma Fishing Port.

This shrine is special because the sunrise in February and November fall right through the centre of the scenery if you stand at the top of the staircase, like in this picture below.

Imagine the sun at the horizon, right at the centre.

Not only it is famous for the beautiful sunrise, but the shimenawa (in simpler words, the twisted rope in the picture) in front of the shrine, the giant drum as well as the giant bell  make this shrine well-known too! It's a bummer I did not take pictures of those drum and bell!



A garden of iris flowers lay in front of the shrine. The smell is strong too~ Then, we have the charms shop~




Not so sure what this is, but it's a cow.
Maybe not just any cow, but a holy cow.
sorry for trying to be funny



Walking further behind the main shrine, we went up the hill. There are so many toriis and they remind me of Kyoto.




Small shrine we encountered on our way.



Water for purification~



I really wish I could capture more photos, but I could not. It was already sunset when we arrived there, and as we walked, the sky got darker. You can tell from the first picture through the last one in this post. I really do recommend this shrine~ The entrance is free, but the parking is a problem. We parked the car somewhere 200m away from the shrine.




-vivian-

Saturday, July 15, 2017

*I can't recall the name of this place*


But...
We parked outside the shrine and it was only a few minutes away~ You have to walk pass the woods to enter the shrine~



Woods mean there will be mosquitoes. So, prepare yourself with mosquito repellent before walking here. There is a small shrine along your way to the main shrine~



This shrine is quiet, probably because it is not one of those popular shrines. However the small shrines that you will see are worth to be photographed.




Maybe the shrine is a little too quiet.



Omikuji~



Not a nice photo but it's a nice view. I wish my eyes could capture every thing I see~



Remember the wooden blocks I mentioned in my Nakatsu Castle entry? Here's a closer shot~


A really close shot.



There's a good looking man who lives nearby. Let me marry him and have a healthy baby with him, please.

Just a rough translation. XD



Took an instax before leaving~


Free entrance too~ Just remember that you'll have to park your motor vehicle outside~





-vivian-